i miss  you neil.

im going through alot as of late. life is kinda hard.
ive been "sitting" more and instead of meditating i am overcome by sadness and lonliness.
at this point i can no longer run from stuff..i have become aware enough to not be able to turn back in ignorance..so i will go now and sit and see who comes to visit me..i'll watch them enter the room, acknowledge them and watch them walk out...over and over and i wont cling to the pleasant ones or push away the less desirable..all are equal.
nothing.